"I will wait for you" by Official P4CM Poet JANETTE...IKZ www.youtube.com 
I Will Wait For You
So it seemed, that it was cool,  for everyone to be in a relationship but me..
So I took matters into my own hands… and ended up with him
Him who displayed the characteristics of a CHEATER, a LIAR, an ABUSER, & a THEIF
So.. why was I surprised when he broke into my heart?
I called 911, but I was cardiac arrested for aiding and abetting,
Cause it was ME who let him in…
Claiming we were “just friends”..
It was already decided for me by the first date, that even if he wasn’t!
I was gonna make him ‘The One’..
You know… I was tired of being alone,
And I simply made up in my mind, that it was about that time so I decided to drag him along for the ride,
Cause I was always the bridesmaid & never the bride..
A virgin in the physical, but mentally just a grown woman on the corner in heat!
Who was tired of the wait!
So I was gonna make him ‘The One’.
He had a… form of Godliness… but not much..
But hey, hey I can change him! So (honey) I’ll TAKE him, I mean he’s close… enough
Ready to sell my aorta for a quarter, not knowing the value of its use to me
Arteries so clogged with MY will, it blocked HIS Will from flowing through me
So, I thank Christ that His blood pressure gave this heart an attack,
That flat lined my obscured vision, put me flat on my back
Through my ignorance He sawed,
Through my sternum He sawed & cracked open my chest
To transplant Psalm 51:10
A new heart & a renewed right spirit within!
So now I fully understand,
Better yet I thoroughly comprehend,
How much I NEED to wait… for You.
See, the bad thing is that I knew he wasn’t you from the beginning..
Cause in the beginning was the Word
And he didn’t even sound or shine like Your Son
Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks,
And all he could whisper was sweet, empty nothings –
Which meant NOTHING.
He couldn’t even pray when I NEEDED him to
Asking him to fast would be absurd!
So forget about being cleansed & washed with water through the Word…
But I know You.. ♥
You were already praying for me
Even never having met me
Let me assure you, I will wait for you.
I will no longer date, socialize or communicate with carbon copies of you
To appease my boredom or to quench my thirstiness I have for attention
And short-lived compliments from ‘sorta kindas’.
You know…. He ‘sort kinda’ right, but ‘sorta kinda’ wrong?
His first name LUKE,
His last name WARM.
I, I won’t settle for false companionship
I won’t lay in the embrace of his arms,
Attempting to find some closeness,
But never feeling so far apart cause, I just wanna be held
Cause ♫”all I gotta do is Say” No!
NO more ‘almost sessions’ of ‘almost coming close’
Passing winks & buying drinks,
I’mma, I’mma, I’mma flirt!♫
Who flirts with the ideology of,
‘Can you just tell me how much I can get away with & still be saved?’
NO more.
I’ll stay in my bed… alone, and write poems, about how I will wait for you
He won’t even come close,
Our fingers won’t even interlock
We won’t even exchange breath
Cause I have thoughts that I’ve ‘Saved As’ in a file that God has only equipped you to open.
I will no longer get weighted down,
From so-called friends & family talks,
About the concern for my biological clock
When I serve the Author of Time.
Who is NOT subject to time,
But I’M subject to Him,
He has the ability to STOP, FAST FORWARD, PAUSE, or REWIND at any given time…
So if we could role play,
You would be Abraham & I would be Sara
Or you can be Isaac & I can be Rebecca – a servant’s answered prayer
I am bone of your bone, flesh of your flesh,
Made up of your rib Adam!
And once we meet, like electrons
I will be bound to your nucleus, completely indivisible atom.
We even speak the same math: 1 + 1 + 1 = 3, which really equals 1 if you add Him.
We were all created in His image,
But you have the ability to reflect, project & even detect the Son.
If I were to explain what you looked like,
You would have to look like a star,
A son of the Son..
I would gain energy simply from the light on me.
I would need you , in order to complete my photosynthesis
I await your revelation, but once again from the genesis, I will wait for you ♥
And I will know you… because when you speak I will be reminded of Solomon’s wisdom,
Your ability to lead will remind me of Moses,
Your faith will remind me of Abraham,
Your confidence in God’s Word will remind me of Daniel,
Your inspiration will remind me of Paul,
Your heart for God will remind me of David,
Your attention to detail will remind me of Noah,
Your integrity will remind me of Joseph,
And your ability to abandon your own will, will remind me of the disciples,
But Your ability to love selflessly & unconditionally will remind me of Christ.
But I won’t need to identify you by any special Matthews or any special Marks,
Cause His word will be tatted all over your heart.
And you will know me, and you will find me,
Where… the boldness of Esther meets the warm closeness of Ruth.
Where the hospitality of Lydia is aligned with the submission of Mary,
Which is engulfed in the tears of a praying Hanna.
I will be the one, drenched in Proverbs 31… waiting for you.
But to my Father, my Father who has known me before I was birthed into this earth
Only if you should see fit…
I desire Your will above mine,
So even if you call me to a life of singleness,
My heart is content with YOU – the One who was sent.
YOU are the greatest love story ever told,
The greatest story ever known
You are forever my judge & I’m forever Your witness
And I pray that I’m always found on a mission about my Father’s business
Oh, I will always be Yours!
And I will always wait for You Lord, more than the watchmen wait for the morning…
More than the watchmen wait for the morning… I WILL WAIT ♥

"I will wait for you" by Official P4CM Poet JANETTE...IKZ www.youtube.com

Church

Found this post in a facebook page called 'rise up'... https://www.facebook.com/groups/RISEUPSOCIETY/512413495512535/?notif_t=group_comment_reply

I'm done. With the plastic smiles

I'm done. With Christians who walk into church like they are walking into a Country Club

I'm done. With Christians pretending they are perfect

I'm done. With churches saying "that's the way we've always done it"

I'm done. With Christians who say healing services in these modern days are fake.

I'm done. With Christians who avoid fasting

I'm done. With people who sit in church waiting for the pastor to "bless" them

I'm done. With those who think pre-schoolers are too small to learn about Jesus

I'm done. With Christians who mock saints that cast out demons in the name of Jesus

I'm done. With Christians who complain about their church but have never given a dime to God's kingdom

I'm done. With people who stand and cheer at football games on Friday nights but walk into church like they are at a funeral

I'm done. With Christians who can sing Madonna's latest hit but can't recite the 10 commandments

I'm done. With Christian fathers who push their sons to play football, but have never taught them to read the bible

I'm done. With Christians who go into deep debt to "keep up with the Jones'" who sit next to them in Sunday School.

I'm done. With fake "Christian-ese" on men's lips

I'm done. With deacons who complain about an unsaved teenager wearing a ball cap into the sanctuary

I'm done. With Sunday morning being the most segregated hour of the week.

I'm done. With Christians who think they are better because their skin is white

I'm done. With Christians who think organs are holy and drums are not.

I'm done. With Christians who say "I'm fine" when really their marriage is in shambles

I'm done. With people who think their past should be a secret, lest they be judged by the church

I'm done. With churches who think worship is for Sunday morning

I'm done. With Christians who don't believe in supernatural healing

I'm done. With Christians who don't believe in the unseen warfare all around us

I'm done. With Christians who believe miracles only happened in the bible

I'm done. With Christians who call on God like He's a cosmic genie in a bottle

I'm done. With Christians who think somehow they have attained all they have

I'm done. With this "little religion box" that some Christians have put Jesus into

I'm done. With the limits that most churches put on God's power

I'm truly done. no more limits. no more boundaries. no more plastic people. no more playing church. I'm done. Jesus did not die so His people could play church and be comfortable.

How long will we "play church" while there are lost souls to win, hungry orphans to feed, hurting widows to love, lonely hearts to mend, and broken
lives to heal?

There is no limit to God's power displayed through His people if we could just stop playing church and start being the church!

Rise UP and Start Being The Church

My 2 cents on serving

1. Don't serve out of guilt- things done on guilt are short lived & seasonal. As soon as guilt checks out you stop.

2. You can never pay back God no matter how hard/long you serve. In fact the harder you work to pay back God, the more indebted to Him you will feel.

3. Things being difficult or challenging in your area of service doesn't necessarily mean that it's.a sign from God to move on. Most often it stems from pride, selfish interest & plain old escapism.

4. Complements as awesome as they are can make you mediocre & complacent. You know you can do much better but 'everyone' thinks you're good & so you'd rather just leave it at that.

5. It is better you don't do anything for God than doing a half hearted/shady job for Him.

Jeremiah 48:10 NIV "A curse on anyone who is lax in doing the Lord 's work!

Deutronomy28:47 KJV Because thou served not the Lord thy God with joyfulness, and with gladness of heart, for the abundance of all
things; 48 Therefore shalt thou serve thine enemies which the Lord shall send against thee, in hunger, and in thirst, and in nakedness, and in want of all things: and he shall put a yoke of iron upon thy neck, until he have destroyed thee.
to be continued...

WOULD YOU PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE

Would you please leave me alone!
Would you please leave my heart!
Would you please leave my mind and thoughts!
Would you please leave my life!
That's an order and not a request!

Unless you want to be my friend
You know, remember me not only when you see me!
Call me often, God knows i would do the same.
Unless you want close company,
You know, sharing the deep conversations about life, love and God.
Drop me a line and an instant reply from me.

Wait... What am I saying?
Would you please leave me alone!
Would you please leave my heart!
Would you please leave my mind and thoughts!
Would you please leave my life!
That's an order and not a request....

Or maybe if you'd like to you know,
Say more than hi! Look me in the eyes sometimes
Make me blush
Or maybe if you say you missed me
And it showed in your eyes, in your smile, in your very being
Make me feel like somebody.

Oh my... you see why i want you out.
Would you please leave me alone!
Would you please leave my heart!
Would you please leave my mind and thoughts!
Would you please leave my life!
That's an order and not a request....

Come to think of it, i only know your name,
See you once in a while, regular unplanned meetings
But i feel like i know you, like me and you are something
great,
You and I are written down in heaven...
Oh! But what does an infatuated girl know?

So to retain the little dignity i'm left with...
Would you please leave me alone!
Would you please leave my heart!
Would you please leave my mind and thoughts!
Would you please leave my life!
That's my desperate plea, unless you're planning
on hanging around for life!

joska kamala
1/11/2011

You Just Lost One, Letter to Satan * Blair Wingo

Dear Satan,

I’m writing you this letter to inform you that our relationship is officially done.
You just lost one!
Cause for too long I’ve battled in my mind
Your voice v. God’s v. mine
For too long I’ve entertained the same thoughts as Cain
Like how truthfully my flesh loves to be first
How my pride tries to cover and hide so I can’t see the extent of this curse
So I’m returning all your gifts
Rejecting all your myths
See all this time I thought that I had control, but you were controlling this
Despite me doing good works in the church
Thinking I was a Christian
All the while allowed your spirit to lurk
What a deception
You went to church with me
A thwarted perception
Saying that I love God louder and louder
But had a spiritual infection
I see you’re a deceiver; you take advantage of every weak part
I could come to church every week
As long as I don’t apply the word to my heart
We were friends because I did what you wanted me to
I thought a little sin wouldn’t hurt
I mean I didn’t want to sleep with you
I just thought it would be cool to flirt
But I see you play for keeps
Now I know that the Word is true
What you sow is what you reap
I keep saying I’m so blessed, I’m so blessed
All the while secretly giving you a kiss
I remember all the places we used to go
Now inwardly it makes me sick
Like how you talked me into going to the club
At first I really didn’t want to go
I thought it wouldn’t affect me
But while I was there my lust began to flare and I got hot and heavy
Started thinking about the dudes in the room
Wanting to ride off in their Chevy
Or the comedy spots where we sat and laughed enjoying ourselves all night
When they were joking and mocking the church like that situation is light
And explicit sexual content echoed through that mic
And I laughed like it was alright
Now I know God wasn’t laughing
Even though you and I was on a roll
I see it was because my heart was so numb and cold
In the back of my mind
I thought I’d really give God 100% when I’m old
Once I’m done having my fun
Then I thought what if I don’t make it past 25, then what?
What did I live for?
I just can’t ignore anymore this proposal from the Lord
So I changed my number so you would no longer call
And I would no longer fall
But even though I did all that you still controlled me from afar
Because I was just trying to be a better person
Stopped clubbing, stopped sex, stopped cursing
Dropped friends, cause of greed stopped working
But stopping things don’t rid the seed of the serpent
It was all self-righteousness
A righteousness I created
It’s like using filthy rags to take a bath
When the truth is my entire sin nature is bad
And me stopping those things never dealt with the wickedness of my heart
If I thought someone did me wrong
I was so quick to lash back, all the while singing a praise song
Even though the Bible says repay not evil for evil, I refused to believe
And your strings got me doing things that I can’t even help
Trying to love my brother but always thinking about myself
What a curse
Like I could run up and hug someone at church
But because inwardly I wanted to be first
Didn’t realize it but I was wishing them the worst
Although the outside was clean
The inside of the cup was filthy and mean
So I wrestled with the conclusion
Maybe I’ve been excluded from being able to live this Christian life
But then that sounds like your voice
You’ve influenced so much of my life
Those events help me see how powerless I am
And the reality is there is only one way
And before I was set free, I had to realize I was a slave
I have no merit, virtue or favor with God
It’s Christ’ poured out lifeblood that saves
And I’m sick of it, my sin
I’ve defended it, time and time again
Dead in my transgression but now I’ve come on out of the grave
Because this new relationship is based solely by grace through faith
And my life is a result of what I believe
Since you shall know a tree by the root and the fruit
So rather than just dress modestly, I’m checking my heart too
Making sure there is no vanity
Or that I’m dressing to grab the attention of humanity
Because I know what I can do, if I remain in a relationship with you
My potential outside of Christ is extremely detrimental
So I’m clinging on with all I’ve got
So now when I think of all the movies we went to
Man I get so hot
Cause Christ has won my heart
I can’t sit there and glory in the violence on that screen
And even though I used to justify by saying I never hurt anyone
I was being entertained by the very thing
God choose to destroy the world for in Genesis 6
He said the earth was corrupt and filled with violence
So the only reason I wasn’t destroyed
Was God’s kindness
You see you helped me build a tower like you did with Nimrod
But I’m tearing it down for my God
By the way I’m clearing out my ipod
I’m giving you back all your music
Couldn’t see it before
This tool you were using
Different song
Different score
Brought the same conclusion
All about lust, money, self and sex
Yet those things are the reason Christ was out to death
Who you using next
Chris Brown, T-pain, souljah boy, ne-yo, Beyonce or Game?
Every artist motivation is the same
To take my heart away from the reason Christ came
I could say I’m saved all the while exalting men
Not a fanatic for Christ cause I’m a TI fan
No-one no-one, not even Alicia keys supersedes the reason Christ bleeds
No-one no-one has even ever heard Alicia sing about why Christ is grieved
And I thought her music was positive
But when I look into the word, Christ and Alicia are opposites
Christ is on my mind
So you won’t see me bobbing it
Because He’s all I need
He is all I need
Cause all that music was to glorify me
Yet the reason Christ came was to mortify me
To crucify my flesh
Not to be the Christian in Christian-Dior up in the video with Kanye West
Now I see
How he’s saying he’s Christian yet he’s exalting women, sex, and greed
And I said I was just listening to the beats
You had me so blind to the content
I was so deceived
Didn’t realized Satan disguised as I was hitting repeat
At the same time they were pushing repeat when my savior was beat
Pierced in His wrist and feet
To take away these worldly lusts these songs stir within me
So I confess
I’m no longer impressed with you whack lines
You’ll give me all your kingdoms if I bow and worship at your shrine
And I used to
But now I’m adopted into the vine
So every lie you told me
Like you being my homie
That I could rep Christ as long as we kicked it on the low key
I’m done with you and all the excuses you gave
Like living holy is a long process
But the truth is, you didn’t want me to change
I used to be a daughter of lies
You used to be my master
But now I’m at the feet of Christ with me box of alabaster
Because He redeemed me, set me free
And I will spend my time, all of eternity
Learning Him
Wiping His feet with my tears
Oh well, there will be no tears in heaven
But I will sit and give Him reverence
Because I know I’m undeserving of His love
See I’m now covered in the blood of the Son
So in case you forgot
I’m writing this letter to inform you that our relationship is officially done,

You just lost one!

Comparison, complacency, compromise

2Corinthians10:12 For we dare not make ourselves of the number, or compare ourselves with those that commend themselves: but they, measuring themselves by themselves, and comparing themselves by themselves, are not wise.

I think most of the non achievements or issues of complacency in my life have most often than not come as a result of comparison. I mean i'm not as lazy as... or as bad as... or vain as... or as nosy as... etc which obviously doesn't make the situation better or worse hence leaving a placebo effect. With the problem not solved but sugar coated with a false sense of relief.


Sometimes, this also reflects on our spiritual lives. We know there's so much we should be doing in the kingdom of God but when we look around we convince ourselves we're ok. I'm better than Mary, i at least read a verse a day, she doesn't even have a bible or i'm only stealing a pen. I'm better than Stano who picks wallets. Trust me i've been there most often than not. Not attending say an all night because so and so is not there or just watching at least i'm not practicing... Forgetting that my friends are not the standard. Neither is my family or my leader. The only standard is Jesus, and how far i fall from his standard. Its our month of righteousness and the call is out!

I pray for grace to be like Jesus because its ALWAYS easier said than done. For it is God who gives us the grace to will and to do. 2Corinthians3:5 Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think anything of ourselves: but our sufficiency is of God... Phillipians2:13, Hebrews13:20-21

THE ROOT OF BITTERNESS

Today was an awesome day from the time i heard this message today morning. I needed to hear it and i hope it helps you:

According to the dictionary bitterness is; feeling angry and unhappy because you feel you've been treated unfairly/ very unhappy, caused by great unhappiness(oxford advanced)

You know you're bitter when you:
1. Keep talking about a particular instance
2. Have prolonged grief
3. Actions are accompanied by hostility and a feeling of rejection. You retaliate and fight people.
4. Prone to deception, con artists and witchcraft(to seek revenge or quick mood boosts)
5. Overwhelming load, burden on the soul.
6. Feel dissatisfied with God, like he owes you something Ruth1:13
7. Constantly angry, swearing and or rehearsing details of what happened to you. Complain all the time- not solving the problem but talking about the problem
8. Want to be isolated- remembering the bad and forgetting the good

What can bitterness do to you?
Removes the grace of God- Hebrews12:15 Springs trouble, sadness and sickness Genesis27:24-40 What is the cure?

JUST GIVE UP ALL THE RIGHTS TO REVENGE. Once bitterness is lifted a flood of blessings come. I hope y'all have learnt something like i did and i pray that every root of bitterness wither from your lives in the name of Jesus Christ.